Welcome to the palace sugah. What you're experiencing isn't something to be ashamed of, though in most societies it's best to keep your sexual kinks to yourself until such a time that you can discuss them with others without worry for who thinks or cares about what. So there's that at least ^_^
As to why this particular fetish is intriguing to you, there's many reasons for that. Everyone has their different reasons and so it'd be hard to pick yours out of the hundreds of explanations. I know I'm into futa because I enjoy fucking with what people conceive as gender and sexual norms so a girl that's not fully a girl is one way to go about that. Another is because the penis can be seen as a sort of symbol of power, of hunger, of desire, etc. So it's nice to see women with those sort of qualities in my pleasurable materials.
Once again, welcome to the palace sugah and I hope you have a good stay ^_^
If you've answered yes to any of the above, pm this pretty little cutie for a good time ^_- Ask me questions sugah, I'll answer truthfully.
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